Right after publishing the last post, I went to have a shower. And under the shower I realised that part of the reason why I was ill so long was that I psychologically wasn’t helping myself. I was focussing on the work that was awaiting me, and that I didn’t feel like doing, I was thinking about my loneliness, and about the fact that I am unhappy in my job.
But then I realized that I have some really cool stuff coming up this fall. I realized that I could start online dating any day I want, and may do so after my long Japan trip that I am planning in October and November. I realized that there is a lot of great stuff waiting to happen, and that I need to go out there and be ready for it. And I was happy about that and singing under the shower.
This is a new attitude. One that will get me healthy. Yay!